I said I would post the first deleted scene when But I Said Forever reached 20 reviews on Amazon.com and 10 on Amazon.co.uk and it has! Thank you to everyone who’s posted a review so far. If you haven’t, get to it because I’ll post the next missing scene when the book has 25 reviews on .com and 12 on .co.uk.
In the early versions, I had Carly tackling Brittany about her feelings for Zack. Eventually I left that out, but here’s their original discussion.
Zack appears the next Tuesday as well, apparently on the way back from somewhere else, to see if we need any more help. After that, Carly tackles me.
‘I’m positive he likes you,’ she says. ‘As in likes. I’ve seen the amount he’s been helping here and how much effort he puts into playing with James. There’s not a lot of men who’d do that for a woman they’re indifferent to.’
I turn away from her, unsure what to do with myself in the small space. ‘I’m still married and goodness only knows how long it will take to get divorced if Phillip fights it all the way. By the time I’m available, he’ll be off and dating someone else. He’s not likely to wait for me.’
‘Well, he might not. But the chances are a whole lot greater if he knows he’s got something to wait for.’
‘What are you saying?’
‘I’m saying, maybe you should let him know that you’d be interested in getting together once you’re free.’
I look out the window, wrapping my arms around myself. ‘I don’t think so. It’s too dangerous. I don’t want to start anything up until I’m free and you know how one thing can lead to another. I’d rather have him think I’m not interested.’
‘Lots of people start dating while they’re getting divorced, you know. Some don’t even wait that long.’
‘I know, but…’ I clutch the folds of my cardigan. ‘I just can’t do it. Mentally… well, I won’t say I’m still married, because I haven’t felt that for a long time. But I’m still unavailable. And even if I didn’t feel like that, I’m not sure I’d want to rush straight into another relationship. I married so young… maybe I should spend some time on my own – really understand what I want and who I am – before I consider being part of a couple again.’
‘There’s a lot to be said for that, certainly. But it might mean you miss out on a great relationship.’
‘If it’s meant to be, it’ll work out eventually,’ I say firmly. ‘I really believe that. You know my sister and her boyfriend were friends their whole lives before getting together. I’m sure loads of people thought they’d missed their chance, but really they were just waiting for the right time. Mel’s having enough issues with the pressure to marry him as it is; it would have been terrible for her if they’d started dating when Phillip and I did. It might even have split them up.’
‘Well, it’s your call,’ Carly says. ‘But you’re going to keep in touch when you start your new job, right?’